Well this morning our good friends Stephanie and Jeremy started their Journey to parenthood. They have adopted a child from Vietnam and are on their way to pick him up. Very exciting on many levels. I admire the upcoming trek for several reasons. First they are becoming parents. Which in itself is going to be THE most important decision and journey in their life. Second they are going to Vietnam. I have always wanted to take a several week long trip to the orient.
I wish them safe travels and speedy return. I cant wait to greet them back home as parents.
Kids are a very touchy subject with my wife and I. She has no desire whatsoever to become a parent. I on the other hand would enjoy the prospect. I sit back and watch our friends giving birth, adopting and caring for children they already have. And this want to be father person comes out. I want to experience everything there is to be a parent. The other day I watched a movie from the 80’s called “Parenthood”. Possibly one of the best movies from the 80’s. However as good as this movie was I kept thinking though the entire thing. “I want those problems” . These thoughts are disturbing to me on several levels.
1. If my wife never concedes what do I do? This by far is the scariest thought. Do I concede that I will never have children and just take solice in knowing that I will always just be “Uncle Mikey”? Do I wait and see and hope that she will change her mind? Or do I push harder?
2. Am I worthy of being a father? Can I actually BE a father? I mean really a life is in your hands. Its not like a dog. And would I be a good father? I know how I was raised. And the relationship with my father that I had. Would I repeat that? If so I am not sure I want to be a father. With this comes other questions. I love my time to myself. There are times I just DO NOT want to be bothered. And if I am bothered during those times I can be a real Bear. I get fairly grumpy. I can be quite selfish in that matter. Most of all am I responsible enough to be a father?
3. What happens if I don’t have children? What is really the point to living and acquiring wealth and saving tons of money? If your not going to have children to leave that to, then why do it? And then of course who will remember me when I die and after I die? Who will grieve? If I die after my wife who will help me die? Or if I pass before my wife who will help her die? Would we die among strangers in a hospital room? Or will we have some family around to make us feel comfortable? Very scary thoughts if you think about it a bit.
Those of you who have been watching this blog for a while and noticed that there has been no activity and all of a sudden its being used agian will notice the new links over on the side there. For Zanthina, Moogaman, and Reawriter. Those great individuals are my wifes niece, future nephew, and a new friend. Whom I consider all to be wonderful and love very much and dearly.
You know as a kid I moved around A LOT. By the time I was in 6th Grade at Lawson here in Jefferson City, I had been to 12 different schools. I always hated moving, but at the same time I enjoyed it. Because I always met new and interesting people. And I attribute this to my being able to accept a lot of things and people that others may not. While Jefferson City isn’t new to either my wife or I, moving back here has given us the opportunity to connect with people we knew but weren’t able to spend a whole lot of time with. For instance Zan and Mooga, I have alway enjoyed hanging out with them. They would come and visit us in KC, but being here in JC they have introduced us to some of their friends. And I have got to say. What a wonderful bunch they are. They are eclectic, exciting, fun, easy going, accepting, and non-judgemental. Which is what I enjoy the most.
I am sitting here in my couch listening to Tom Petty Wildflowers. God I loved this album in High school. It was in my cd player my senior year almost constantly. I recently got reintroduced to music through one of my good friends from school Steve.
He is a bit of an audiophile. So his stereo setup is really a site to see and hear. So in my various visits to his house I began to realize that my Home Theater really sucked. Sure I have a pretty good TV. Not great by any standard. But it hangs with the big boys. Samsung 61″ DLP widescreen. I do love my TV, but my sound was seriously lacking. So I made the mistake of asking my friend what I should do about it. Now if your reading this and your thinking about upgrading your Home Theater DO NOT ASK THE GUY WHO HAS $20,000 dollar speakers. While I have not spent that on my theater I have spent a good penny. But I have to say I am still not happy. Granted the sound is MUCH MUCH better then what I had before. But I am still lacking the full range ambiance that good floor standing floor ranger speaker can provide.
In my recent uptake of a new hobby I have discovered I have no knowledge of music but I am a semi audiophile. Meaning I cant tell you anything technical, or tell you the date and time the Beatles released the Abby Road album, or tell you which number Back to Black is on its album. But I really enjoy sitting back and listening. And hearing EVERY single note. Being able to close my eyes and invision a story, time, or the artist playing in front of me. This is something you truly cannot do with a boom box. You need high quality speakers, amps, cable, and players. You would not believe what you miss in just casual listening. Even all those MP3 players CD’s everybody thinks is SOOOO great. Really put those on a high quality stereo or Theater and you will never want to listen to MP3 agian. So you cant tell me, that even supposed 128 bit or higher is as good or better than CD. It simply isn’t, anytime you compress something you are losing something.
Wow, well it has been over a year since I have posted anything. Life has been extremely full, and moving quickly.
Well lets see what has happened. Since last post. As I said we sold our house in Kansas City and bought a new house in Jefferson City. Since life has just been great. We have been so happy to be back in Jefferson City. Work has been well work. I found a job with a small company called Fujitsu. Well actually not so small. But most poeple have never heard of them. But trust me now that you have heard and seen the name you will see it EVERYWHERE!! They are the worlds second largest electronics manufacturer. My position with them is technical support for POS systems. Such as the USCAN lanes in your local grocery store. And the cash registers at just about every retail outlet you can think of. I cover all of Central Missouri down to Springfield and Branson area.
Also EVERY one of our friends decided to have children within 6 months of each other. So by the end of September we will have a bunch of babies around. This should be interesting.
Hopefully this time around the blog wont get so neglected. But we will see. I am going to try to keep up with this a little better. A lot more has happened in the last year. But there is almost to much to go over now. So I am just going to go on with new stuff.
